For so long I thought it would be a daunting task to make sushi. I mean there has to be a reason they have classes on how to make it and a reason for it costing a stupid amount. Just for a small package of vegetable sushi from Smith’s is $7. It’s just cucumber, avocado, and carrots, it can’t cost that much to make..
My first video had some audio problems so here is the fixed version. Added a little bit to it as well so you get to enjoy more adorable Rylan time 😀
Today is Rylan’s first real Easter as last year he was only a month old on Easter so we didn’t do anything special. I don’t really feel like making another separate post so I’m going to include some other pics from before today. Enjoy! =)
**I just realized the audio in the video is messed up an you can’t hear Rylan’s adorable talking and giggling. I’m working on fixing that now. Sorrys.
“Live a good life. If there are gods and they are just, then they will not care how devout you have been, but will welcome you based on the virtues you have lived by. If there are gods, but unjust, then you should not want to worship them. If there are no gods, then you will be gone, but will have lived a noble life that will live on in the memories of your loved ones.” ~ Marcus Aurelius
I know that most people who are reading this won’t bother to watch this video. It seems people prefer to avoid listening to others challenge their beliefs. “Ignorance is bliss.” Right? Maybe.. But… “knowledge is power.” This speech has been translated into 30 different languages and is also the most watched speech in Israeli history.. Yeah, it’s kind of a big deal.
Anyways, sorry for rambling. Here’s the video.
A lot has changed in the last couple weeks. I moved out of my parents and moved into a really cute apartment with my sister and her son. I have a nice view of the mountains from all the main rooms.
Another change that’s not as positive is I’ve become single.. It’s still sinking in that all the plans and dreams I had with D are no longer. As I’m sure you know, it’s really painful. I’ve come to a hard realization that I suffer from codependency and that’s most likely the cause of all my failed relationships. Apparently, codependency is similar to alcoholism but instead of being dependent on alcohol you are dependent on someone else.. It’s pretty bad. They even have codependency meetings that follow the same 12 step program as AA, I would go to these but they are late at night and I have Rylan to care for. Right now I plan on trying to focus on finding what makes me happy in life and learning to take care of my own emotions and problems. I think it will be easier while single as I won’t have someone to run to for every little problem and expect them to make me feel better. I also won’t feel the need to fix their every problem or bad mood, which takes a LOT of energy. So yeah.. Hoping everything will work out for the better.. Hoping..
The last change is that I’m pretty sure I’m changing my major.. I wanted to do software engineering but that’s not a possibility unless I start over new which means the last 2 semesters I’ve taken would be a waste of time and money. Stupid University of Utah transfer requirements. So now I’m thinking of doing electrical engineering, but not even sure about that.. Ugh. If I could choose any major it would honestly be natural medicine, that would require moving out of state though. And that’s not possible. Feels like the world is against me or something.. I’ll figure it out though. Feel free to give me advice on this dilemma in the comments.
Anyways, next post will be less pointless. I’m going out to lunch with a few other moms to a vegan restaurant so maybe I’ll post about that.
You’ll never watch an elephant standing on her head
You will see amazing acrobats and painted clowns instead.
You’ll never color Easter eggs or eat a “Happy” Meal
Instead you’ll give pigs belly rubs – You’ll know chickens dream and feel.
The clamor from the ice cream truck won’t be music to your ears
You will know your Soy Delicious caused no suffering or tears.
You may hear a gentle gobble as you softly stroke a turkey
And give thanks that she’s alive as you’re eating your Tofurky.
While other kids buy leather shoes and eat at Chuck E. Cheese
You’ll be kissing cows and feeding goats and saying “soy please!”
Being different can be hard I know – This world is often cruel
Maybe you’ll be laughed at by the other kids at school.
But compassion is a vital gift that too few share with others
And your heart will not be filled with guilt the way it plagues your mother’s.
So don’t ever be embarrassed or ashamed because you care
You’ll be uniquely beautiful with an empathy that’s rare.
And when you see a rescued lamb and touch his thick warm fleece
You’ll feel no sadness or remorse – You can look at him in peace.
What took so long for me to learn, I’ll start teaching you from birth
And your footprint will be much tinier on this fragile earth.
~ Heather. Copied from here
I’ve gone back to being vegan again. Which I am supper happy about. I was vegan/vegetarian for 3 years before I got pregnant. When my midwife told me I wasn’t gaining enough weight I got paranoid and started eating meat as I knew I wasn’t getting adequate protein. I also lost touch of why I went vegan in the first place. I forgot about the horrible conditions animals go through just to be slaughtered and put on our plates.
It all started when I was watching some documentaries for an essay I was writing, which happened to be the exact documentaries that lead me to being vegan in the first place. Watching those also lead me to watching Vegucated and Forks Over Knives (both on Netflix…You should watch them 😉 ]. After watching all these I decided that I wanted to go vegetarian or vegan. I started doing more research on nutrition to make sure it would be reasonable and safe to be vegan while nursing and to also raise my son vegan. What I read all seemed really promising. So I bought the book Vegan for Life and read it nearly cover to cover in 3 days. It talks all about nutritional needs as a vegan through all stages of life (even pregnancy and nursing!) and also talked me out of my fear of soy foods. I am now confident that Rylan and I can live a healthy happy vegan lifestyle.
I feel like this is a big part of who I am and I lost it when trying to do what would be best for my son. And I forgot how much I loved cooking vegan meals. And, of course, eating said vegan meals! Mmmmm.
Thanks for reading. =]